Hello February ! ♥

Chinese New Year is almost finishing , done collecting angpao? :P After one week of break, it's schooling time again ! So... it's already one month of schooling this year, slowly getting use of new subjects , new class , new teacher , new tuition and of course, It's a whole new environment. No more lazy attitude , no more gaming whole day , no more outings (try to keep it as low as possible) , and yes. Encouragement of never give up! :) Fall 7 times , Stand up 8times. Still trying to throw away all the bad habits , lazy habits , and learning to study smart. But still gonna enjoy myself throughout this obstacle . Life is good, yeah?

now i sounds like a nerd. HAHAHAHAHAHHA fck .
well i'm still gonna try my best :)
no one gonna bring me down. never.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! :)

a whole new beginning.

Hi there, yes . school is starting. tomorrow. December holiday was okay , not bad. was busy with caroling practice and performance . Christmas celebration at church is just awesome , playing games , domino pizzas. although i just bite one of the pizza from my friend -.-" it's just simply fun spending times with those guys , rather than home alone facing comp aite :)

After Christmas , went for apartment stay with church members , at Batu Ferringhi . BBQ-ing at beach , playing truth or dare during midnights, swimming at the pool , playing "monkey ball" at the pool. Although it was a little pack cause one house was meant for around 5adults 2children , but total of all of us was 28 adults . Yeah the guys have to sleep at the living room and stuff. But overall it was a fun camp :)

On the new year eve , went for dinner with church members, after that sent Lai Kim off for 1st batch NS , :( We'll miss you , babe ! Take care :) and then continue for the fun , went to strait quay , sat down on the floor, played "1-5-7-BANG!" game, those with mistake 3 times have to do a DARE. :P ex : go to the middle of the crowd and act as heart attack, lie down and wake up again , or doing "everyday im shuffling " move . Each person have individual dare, nyeheheh , lucky i wasnt the one who got more than 3 mistakes. :D Later on went to the beach behind Flamigo Hotel. Fireworks and stuff. and yeah. Happy New Year ! ♥

People think they know you . They think they know how you're handling a situation . But the truth is no one knows. No one knows what happen after you leave them , when you're lying in bed or sitting over your breakfast alone and all you want to do is cry or scream. They don't know what's going on inside your head- the mind-numbing cocktail of anger and sadness and guilt. This isn't their fault . They just don't know. And so they pretend and they say you're doing great when you're really not. And this make everyone feels better. Everyone but you.

I want to scream , but the voice couldn't reach
I want to cry , but the tears couldn't drop
I want to complain , but the world isn't listening

just tell me what to do.

Hi. Not an active blogger anymore. Well , PMR is over . I guess i should have the time to update and make my blog alive again , but it's seem like kinda impossible. erm. suddenly got nothing to say about after 2 months -.-" k. life has been tough , anyway. just hold on :) i aint perfect , you just saw the outside of me, not the inside. i bet you never want to be in a situation like me. never.

The Paradise Band @ Penang First Church.

Something similar to Generation Cry but this is much more simple. At first i did not want to go since i don't know any of them at there . But my teacher asked me to go . And my mum register for me without asking if i wanted to go or not. like wth. Ok la. She just want me to get out of the house , get out of bed actually. haha -.- it's all about communicating . The band came from oversea . Perth and so on. Overall it was good. Was not able to go for their concert . But went to their music workshop . It was cheap. Just Rm5 . Of course , they never go too detail since it's cheap. :D

That's all for today. :)

Wish you were here - Avril Lavigne

i don't have a choice.

"What is she thinking? Doesn't she know what's she is doing? Work? I thought she suppose to be studying for this coming exam? Doesn't she care about her grade at all? First she's working, now she's even making her own business? and she even quit her tuition! Is she so broke ?! Or is she gone mad already?!"
The thoughts in everyone's head.

Ah har. i got you. :) people had been asking me, why am i doing this and that. "Why?" .
Everything we do have a reason . Example , we study hard for our coming exam. Why? Because we wanna get good grade . So do i. simple as that. I also have my own reason why i'm doing all this. You know , i can't choose. i just have to do it. the reason ? i'll leave it for you to think about it. think whatever you like , because none of it will be my exact reason. reality hurts much.

and i knew everything will be okay.

Uniquely Yours < click ! :D my small business is officially on facebook page. :)

Say hello to goodbye - Shontelle

hoping that this won't be the end of everything.

Oh hi. how amazingly that i ditch my blog for a month huh. :) was really busy with studying and working nowadays. and the awesome thing is, im writing this post when im working . :D HEHEHEHE. curi mcd wifi. damn sien. yesterday went to queensbay , plan to watch transformer. but guess what? 4 theaters also full . only left 5th theathers which is 9.30 also left front sit. have to get midnight ticket -.-" went to have lunch and dinner at TBowl. Cheeseee Baked Rice ! :)

4-3 weeks more , Pmr trail. havent start my revision yet. no time at all . weekday and weekend also work. canceled all my tuition . left one mathematics tuition. suck right. My mid term exam score , aha suck. failed 2 subject which i focus on the most. and i was so down and lost hope on that moment . i felt so tired. what more , i don't have a single choice at all. guess life is just hard.

everyone's a betrayer . thanks.

p/s ; no matter how alone i am , i will never ever get lonely . not even once. thanks but i dont need your sympathy . i can handle everything myself.

I'm in the middle of no where, waiting for the door to be opened

Hi there ! It's been awhile since i blogged eh? Not in the mood of blogging nowadays . :) and extremely lazy . 4more days , school will be reopening , and all of us will face the reality ,again. haha i don't like them like i used to anymore , they're so annoying. uh huh , i just want to be alone for awhile.

Oh and, I went to work for 1 day , ONLY. Since they only need me on that day , so why don't give it a try? Selling honey at Straits Quay , isn't easy at all -.-" And the thing is , other stall at least also got 2 people , but my stall ? only me taking care of it :( no lunch , no dinner , no toilet break. wtf . i was so thirsty and there was no cheap drink to buy. LOL . i asked one of them from the stall to take care of it awhile. and went to buy Starbuck -.- cost me rm15+ .sob . havent get salary already buy so expensive drinks. HAHAHA . oh well , at least i manage to sell them and made rm300+ :D the salary was suppose to be 1hour rm5. but it turn out to be rm70 for a day<3 okay at least i get some experience from there :) next day i spend all the money on buying books already. LOLS.

Last week , I joined Youth Conference Camp , Generation Cry on 31st , 1st and 2nd June. It was totally awesome! First day was kind of boring because it's all about introduction only. The next day , they start jamming around already :D FUN . Here's some picture of it :) There's a group photo , but they haven't update it. will post it up if i'm free .

EHEHEHEH MY TAG. LOL

Take #1

Take #2

Take #3

Last but not least .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEANNE LEE LING MY DEAR !
HEHE.
sorry for the late post . :( jiayou study ya ♥

p/s : i failed my math. eheheh . :D more to come. stay tune !
kept on having weird dream .
what are those dream meant ?
i want to know.

All She Knows - Bruno Mars

WHO'S BIG DAY ON 28TH MAY?!

WHO ? DON'T KNOW WOR.

CHEH , SO OUTDATE :d

MRS.NOOB , ANGEL TANG LI PING BIRTHDAY LA :D

ok, really sorry for the late post . busy + lazy . this girl , damn mai bin until ask me post on my blog to wish her birthday . nothing much to say , hope you like your present . smile always and please don't be that crazy . study hard but not laugh . i bet we will do the same thing at hall like last year what we did. anyway , thanks for being my friend (: i love you , but not forever :D forever don't have a guarantee .

a piece of picture of me and her.
9 lat , steam face . + MY AWESOME MR.POTATO FACE

p/s : more update to come :) not an active blog anymore.

all alone by yourself ; out of nowhere.

HI . I'VE BEEN RUSHING MY FOLIO SINCE FRIDAY . IM FINALLY DONE AND IM HAVING A TERRIBLE SICK NOW. YESTERDAY I STAY UP LATE UNTIL 3AM AND DONE MY ELEMEN 2 SEJARAH . TIRED LIKE SAI . oh im so hyper :D lalalalla. anyway .. i still went out today even though my elemen 3 havent done. alah , sapa berani reject birthday girl pulak tu. ;p

Thor
well , it's a nice movie though . but i also want to watch ghost movie laa :( have fun with tyra and michelle today at queens.

Happy Birthday Tyra !
you're officially fifteen now ;P
hope you like the present yea . ♥

YER I WANT #6
Plushy Cloudy :3

p/s : i don't get to buy comics today , which is a very rare comic i found .
p/p/s : i dropped my PHONE ON THE ROAD and it ROLLED 3CM AWAY FROM ME.
p/p/p/s : im sick. deng it.

Your Call - Secondhand Serenade

HEY , WHOSE BIRTHDAY TODAY?!

LOOK ! IT'S ASLENE TIAM WEN YEE BIRTHDAY ! xD

We've been friend for so many years. Let's see. 4years? LOL not sure. To me, you're a good and greatest friend , whom comfort me when im down , and also teaching me SEJARAH when i needed it. HAHA . Smile always , don't keep everything inside , don't sad . my heart will pain LOL. Uhm. We shall meet up again next time ! :D enjoy your birthday xD . We should get retarded back again together after you finish your SPM and i finish my PMR ! that's a promise ;P

i really miss the moment when we spent time together doing retarded stuff and laughing all the way long in Skype . we should continue doing the same thing again next time alright. i love you ! xD

Once again , Happy Birthday ! ♥

P/S ; and also thank you for the awesome new blogskin !

Take me somewhere, take me anywhere.
Just get me out of here .

Muscle cramp. thanks to tarik tali we played on Friday . lol. somehow i felt pissed . because of something -.- thanks to someone , who is brainless . whom only think for herself but not others . whom only know how to take revenge but not forgive and forget . You get what I mean ? You know who you are , babe. Anyway , i wanted to watch a few movie. or should i say , alot ? lmao. there's alot more i want to watch , but this is the first main one :)

The Ghost Must be Crazy

Hop

Scream 4

Well , i don't think i'll be able to watch it all since it is almost exam . Folios are also waiting for me. It is almost the dateline already . So fast, pmr is around the corner x.x. anyway, any part time job available ? :)

YER I WANT #5
Takochu ♥

One in a Million - Ne Yo
two-faced person ,
you suck.

Lost hope on everything ;

ola world. i'm being perfectly fine here . the only things troubling me is my mind . yes my mind . i can't control my mind . exam is around the corner . bunch of folios have to be done before mid-term exam . which mean we don't have time to study . when time start to get shorter , my mind will be mess up , yet im still day dreaming in class during teacher teaching. Trying to concentrate but end up thinking another stuff. haha. idk what im crapping . anyway . came to post up some picture about hari kokurikulum that we had during last Saturday . It was fun , and alittle boring thou . Because not much fun thing to do . :\

We went to watch the performance by our school girls. Singing competition :) The ticket is just Rm1 each lmao. mostly those juniors performing only . less seniors. only 3-4 like that nia. Was pretty awesome if don't wanna judge much . Yeah it was totally amazing.

The fun time.
they will be a memories.

YER I WANT #4
Little Bunny . :)

p/s : you don't know how much i've taken risk . you don't know anything . even a little bit , YOU DON'T KNOW . go on and say bullshit or whatever shit . don't say you know me. really.

Rocketeer - Far East Movement

Once upon a time , i believed in miracle .

Hi , was too free today , because I skipped school today -.-" awesome huh . lalala , suppose to woke up at 5 -5.30 like that but i woke up at 5.50 :) and my bus came at 6 . My mum also don't wanna fetch me to school , soo .. end up staying at home sleeping whole day . Bad day huh ? Suppose to go to the new tuition also today , but canceled . cause mum said bla bla bla and end up not going until the next next week .

I fainted yesterday . cool eih ? during BB parade was going on . I don't even know why is this happening -.-" I didn't know i was about to faint , then suddenly eyes becoming more and more blur even though i'm opening my eyes ? lol? then end up i went kissing with the floor . all of them was shocked , even myself . I damn shock finding myself sitting on chair but not standing == . They said my head kissed the floor damn loud ;\ but i don't feel anything on my head . but my leg damn pain , blue black d -.-" my friends and my mum said it is because i'm lack of blood ? lol. forget it , will prevent it from happening next time , lucky i wasn't at the road walking and faint. -.- thank god . :D!

YER I WANT #3
Fluffy Plushy Cute Bunny Doll. :3 !

Drama , Love and 'Lationship - Baby Face

You made me feel like I was on drugs.

Finally an update . Was really busy with life . but they don't believe and even said i tend to be busy . who cares ? Back to topic . Exam is over , results are okay . So far so good , no fail . because this is the first time i studied so hard . I've been wondering these few days about something . I don't know weather is their brain had high IQ or maybe they are just lucky . I damn envy those people that do not study at all , do not done their homework or anything , do not pay attention when teacher is teaching still can get higher marks than the one whom studied . Is it that they understand more than us or they are genius . lol , craps . Oh and , i heard someone did a process called copy and paste during the exam , "snatch" people's paper some more . pro . you are lucky that teacher lost sight on you . But remember , god will always keep an eye on you . I don't believe that you won't get the punishment . maybe not now , but soon . :)


Today , i went to PMR Seminar that was held in USM . Fun and boring . Totally out of space during lecture of BM . Maths and Science was a little bit awesome . I found one interesting quote that the lecturer of Mathematics printed on the paper he gave . "If people do not believe that mathematics is simple , it is only because they do not realize how complicated life is " -John Louis von Neumann . 6 hours of lecture . 20% half dead . Well , went back home and prepared for piano . Later on i was going insane at night , was mad and had swollen eyes . i'll be alright .


Lost , im like sort of forget how to talk /share my problems with someone . I feel like an outsider . Expressing feeling is never easy . Thus , i lost trust for everyone . I don't know who should I trust anymore . im sorry but , It's feel like everyone is a 'secret breaker' . one over other , telling this and that stuff . theoneitrustednolongerstayingbesidemeanymoreanditsfeelsick .

YER I WANT #2
HeadPhones :)

will be MIA until everything is fine
p/s ; i hate you . very .

Candles - Hey Monday

this is life , what do you expect ? :)

Hi earthlings. I know I know . I've been ditching my blog for almost a month huh ? Don't have the blogging mood anymore ;\ sucks. and i forget to go for my tuition at 8pm today lmao. sleep until == and i forgotten today i got tuition . LAAAAA . my mood was very down these few days. and lots of folio waiting for me . the main thing is I always sleep . this is an abnormal stuff . i sleep 3times a day -.-" because i got nothing to do . i don't know laa . my mind are all mess up .

what done have been done . i know i've made a mistake for letting you go .
thanks for the care + loves :) i still couldn't forget even though i tried so hard .
times heal everything huh ?

YER I WANT #1
Rilakkuma :)

such a copycat . o0o
Valentine - Kina Grannis